It has been a long time since I’ve blogged. I’ve always been a little inconsistent with it, because I don’t know if my every thought it worth writing about. This time is a little different though. I haven’t blogged, because blogging caused an interesting shift in my life. I don’t want to get too deep into it, but it began a bit of a purge in my life. If you scroll to my last blog post, you might see that I was a bit frustrated, but honest. Certain members of my family did not appreciate that honesty and I was chastised and eventually excommunicated.
Could I have taken post down or apologized? Yes, but I felt as though there was no attempt to actually hear me, so I doubled down. It’s a method that I have more or less taken and run with. I have adopted a policy of stepping away when I need to step away and allow others to step away whenever they so desire. It has brought a massive measure of peace to my life. If people decide to come back into my life, it must be on even terms, but most are welcome with appropriate conversation.
In addition to less conflict and unreasonable expectations, I have picked up at lot more time to be productive and I have found my way into more like-minded company. I have managed to accomplish many more creative tasks, I ha e built my voice resume, I have gotten in healthier and better shape, I have made wonderful friends, I have acquired a job in my chosen field and I can see a long road ahead of me, filled with further successes in every area of my life.
For the first time in my life, I feel truly independent. The only expectations that I try to live up to are my own. I feel strong. I feel creative. I feel anxious. I feel happy. I feel ready. I’m not sure what lesson this might teach anyone reading, but it has been working wonders for me. My life is heading in the direction I want it to, in so many major ways. All I had to do was believe in myself, endure the worse of it and keep pushing for what I wanted from life.