This is a very difficult time for me. I’m finally preparing to do something really major that I’ve thought about, but never had the heart to go through with. I am dropping every piece of my personal, social and professional comfort to move forward in career and life.
Between working two jobs to save money and having frequent and emotionally difficult conversations, I am tired. In every sense of the word and in every aspect of my life, I am at a point of perpetual exhaustion. People have even begun to notice a deep reddening of my formally milky white eyes. It’s not a good look for me, but I feel like it’s necessary. It’s crunch time. I have to do everything I can in preparation of what’s coming next. I don’t enjoy it, but my desire to be prepared is much stronger than the urge to have it easy. I want success, not simplicity. Greatness does not come easy, so I welcome the difficulty. I will adapt. I will grow gills before I drown. I will grow wings before I fall. Whatever is needed and necessary and nonnegotiable. I will do what I must.
What I am now doing, in order to throw caution to the wind and get where I want to be with my work, is moving to the other side of the country. I will be moving to Los Angeles California in the first week of September to see what I can do with my writing. If you’re a family member or personal friend and I haven’t told you this, I apologize. It doesn’t mean you’re less important, it only means I’ve been too forgetful and/or scatterbrained to do so. This is where I see my career taking me. I’ll miss everyone here, but I’ll definitely visit. I love and appreciate everyone who gives their support and I will always be available to contact here or if you have another method.